I had always wondered what it would be like to bump into her again. I wondered if I'd recognize her. I wondered how she'd react. I wondered how I'd react.
So, now, quite unexpectedly, I know.
Attending a technical conference sponsored by my employer today, there she was.
I said hi, she replied. I expressed my surprise at seeing her and then moved away to regain my composure. I probably shouldn't have gone back to try to engage her in conversation because I knew that was doomed to failure. But, of course, I did. We exchanged pleasantaries again, but the awkwardness of the situation made further conversation impossible for her and for me. So I said my goodbyes and walked away - for the last time.
There is an invisible wall between myself and her. All there is left for me to do is ponder the question: what colour should I paint it?